NICOLE SPINNLER

About Me

 Mercury was retrograde when I was born in the summer of ‘93. The planet Mercury symbolizes communication and expression – two powerful and vital aspects of our humanity. But when a planet is retrograde it slows down, and asks us to direct our energy inward. Leaving some things left unsaid.

As a kid I was really quiet. I never raised my hand in class, and I’m pretty sure my teachers thought I was scared of them. I always had plenty going on internally – I just wasn’t sure how to articulate any of it. I ended up in dance and theater throughout my childhood, finding it easier to express myself through movement, or someone else's words. As I got older my love for storytelling grew, leading me to study theater in college. Still relying on the words of others to communicate my inner life.

That’s the thing about retrogrades, though. They don’t last forever. Eventually, they go direct and everything becomes more clear.

I started to catch up with my peers in college. My senior year we were tasked with finding monologues to showcase to New York talent agents in an effort to get repped once we graduated. I couldn’t find anything that fit my particular brand of sarcasm – so I wrote myself something. Something that was angry – but also funny. I performed it in class. My professor laughed at all the right moments.

Since then, I’ve written a little bit of everything. From monologues to poetry, screenplays that have turned into short films; even a TV pilot that was a finalist for the Sundance Episodic Lab.

As it turns out, I’m pretty good at communicating. Now, all the stories and thoughts whirling around in my head as a kid are finally having their moment on the page. I just needed some time. Time for my inner and outer means of expression to become aligned. For the retrograde to turn direct, and the words to finally find their way out.